The basis of self discipline; Don't allow the edges to blur. Michael Johnson
I am not motivated right now. Seems it went out the window - flew like a bird. I am finding it hard to motivated to give up something that I have used for the past 40 years. I am addicted and this has got to be worst addiction to give up - even it will improve my health.
A week and half ago I passed out at home. Doctors do not have any explanation for my blood pressure to bottom out. However, the incident resulted in my having a calcium score test on my heart. Two arteries have begun to build up with plaque. It isn't real bad right now but without making some life style changes it could eventually cause a heart attack. I am feeling fine like nothing ever happened.
I am scared to give my friend up. Don't know what I'll do with my hands. What will I do now when I need a break from my desk? When I am watching TV - what will I do to keep from smoking?
OK - here it is. Changes to my lifestyle include:
1. Walking - Buddy walks with me for a half mile and then I go back out and walk a mile.
2. Eating - appetite will improve - just hope I don't go ballooning up here.
3. Something to do with my hands
I can paint (I do watercolor and haven't painted in more than a year.)
If I could see better I might take up needlepoint again. Haven't done that in years. Got to
look into getting some magnifier glasses.
I'll think of some others things to do with my hands and post.
My mood has been down over the past few days - BUT I am up again today. Thank you Lord. This will be something to conquer - my moods. When I am feeling down I smoke more. This weekend I smoked 3-1/2 packs in 2 days. Not normal for me.
Anyone out there think of what to do with my hands.
Anyhow I have one more week till my set date. ONE step at a time.